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today….i wont say its bad…coz i wanna love each day of mine…dun wan to get any stress over it… but a bit “bitcHy2″ thinGs had happened today…not really today…itS been a long TimE  dat diz thinG had happened…buT i juSt keeP on siLence…i DuN wanna saY a thiNg…coz i never thinK daT im rigHt…and i duN thInK daT im GuiLty alsO…onLy those who reaLLy caRe 4 me knoe how i suffered so much on This thinGs..buT as i always be witH…my patience…and the perso that really noe me…Mama….i expressed everything to her BouT my feeLinG today…she seems sounded maD at me…coZ itS paRt of My mistaKes…wroNgly choosiNg someoNe thaT i shud be wiTh.(noT a boyfren ok).her voice was bit high…i just tolD her that i dun have anybody to tell this To…and she goT more calm..she said its Ok…just dO my best 4 myself…duN reAlly bother abouT anY baD barrieRs thaTs NoT sO imPortaNt 4 me To taKe noTe To…maMa is Bit haNgin wheN i toLd suMboDy has Underestimated me and that sumbody dUn really realize that “that suMbody” had wroNgly thiNk that sumone who “thaT sumbody”reAlly put the believe, betrayed “That sumboDy ” already..hahaha…i noe everybody get so confused now…its not really important.. i just wanna express my relief here…how I loVe my MotHer so mucH…i jusT geT my Mum’s message…aishaH’s  texted me….

mama suRuh smayanG hajaT untuK lembutkaN hati die…

i feel so touched wiTh heR caRe…God noeS hoW i miss heR baDly now…no matter how mad she is tO me…she always gives her verY best tO make me feel better whenever i neeD heR…she might noT show it direcTly,buT i always can feel it till now…. mama, i TruLLy Love U…i dun even noE hOw i caN express my appreciation To U…(im listeninG to boyz 2 men,A sonG foR mama..)

mamA… i noE u duN liKe that suMbody did suCh bad thinS to uR daughTer..Me.

i noE u always wanna B wiTh me…

i Noe u want the besT foR me….

i noE u dun like ur DaughtEr to be tOtured emotionaLLy liKe wuT iM feeLing nOw towards “that suMboDy”..

its oK mum, i’ll be strOng…i’ll be patienT enuF to faCe iT..iF not, this wud’nt be happened tO me…its jusT My destinY…i noe i caN cope wiTh it mum…

whatever people say to me after diz, i’ll never taKe that as baD..i’ll take thaT as a way foR me tO be more patient…yes i wiLL mama..

coz i noe…i am on the right path…

leT it be mama…i wont bother it anymore..Allah noes it beTTer…

mama…i Noe u Love Me…and I loVe u Too..Too much , moRe thaN woRds can say…

sebanarnye rse terpanggil untuk berbincang2 issu Israel mengebom palestine tu…xtau la..td pg lpas subuh rehat2 jap…asyik terpikir hal ni…

teringat2 jugak ttg yg dr tarique ckp ari tu… smpai dia sebak2…aku paham ape y dia rase…g2 gak ape y aku terpikirkan sblum ni..

issue ni sbnrnye dah lame..sjak mtrik dulu lg aku igt pamplet pasal boikot2 ni dah diedarkan…skarang pun ade bnda y same tjadi..

ni aku nk sntuh pasal kite scare umum..

bkan mane2 individu k..

aku x ckp tindakan kite memboikot…buat demonstrasi tu x patot.. tp aku rase slain drpda kite tumpukan pd org2 palestine tu kite patot x terlepas pandang pd org2 kite yang lbey dkat dgn kite…sekeliling kite..4 sure, kalau kite btol2 prihatin.ramai lg yg memerlukan bantuan…ni lah yang

tp yg mengecewakan..org kite ni jnis ikot trend sgt..ikot yg nmpak gah sgt d mate dunia…ikot musim…for example,kire skrg ni musim derma untuk palestin..semua pakat derma…semua pgram dianjur untuk kutip derma buat palestine…kalau kire satu dunia skrg tgh kutip drma untk palstine…

skali lg..aku bkan nk ckp xboleh kutip drma untk palestine je..malahan aku ckp impressed and inspired dgn krajaan klantan bru2 ni wt mjlis smyg ajat n kutip satu juta lbih kalu xsilp terharu..aku..seriously aku

alhamdulillah..

dan aku pon mmg ckup ksian dan sdeh dgn kdaan mgsa2 zionis d palestine tu..

cume dalm kite kutip2 drma untuk y jauh sane kite jgn lupe jgk y dkat2 dgn kite…masyrkat stempat kite ni…same tarafnye mreka yg sushnye d sini dgn y sush d palestine sane….

lps subuh td aku msh duk pk2 pasal ni…tp brite dlm radio dlm kete td wt aku lg nekad nk tulis ni …dlm brite td duk cerite 5 adik bradik duduk tggal dlm kotak je lpas mak yg bkerja untk diorg mniggal dunia …mdah2an kte same2 dpt renungkan..

kalau nk dikaitkan dgn pe yg dr tarique,one of my lecturer 2 ckp…lbih kurg la jgk… knape Allah x turunkan pertolongan ke atas wrga palestine macm dlm surah Al FiiL tu? sbb cinta kite x cukup smpai pada ALLAH…dr tarique ckp sbb umat islam ni memuak2kan umat islam dan mmberi ranking dan standard tertntu pd sesame umat.sdgkan pd Allah kite ni semua same satu taraf dan yg membezakan kite pdNYA adalah amal ibadat…bukn wrna kulit dan bgsa…

kasih syg kite sesame umat tu yg xberape smpai kpd Allah..Cinta kite sesame umat xmyentuh tahap yg Allah mahukan…

same jgk dgn derma… kite sibuk derma untk palestine..tp org miskin dan teraniaya y sesame negara dan sesame islam dgn kite d malaysia ni blambak lg…

mcm rancgan bersamamu tv3…dulu brape juta yg mndrma…tp tgk skarg..ranking rancgan tu pun dah menurun…Allah xpernah tetapkan berape kite prlu mnderma…berape jauh kite prlu hulurkan sumbangan…tp y Allah kate xsmpurna iman seseorg tanpa dia mengasihi temannye yang lain… kalo aku tsilap kt sini btolkanla..tp aku harap korang get the point here…

ape kisah pulak dgn tabung kt masjid2 y kbanyakannye byk berhabuk dr terisi dgn sumbangan… aku rase korg slalu tgk fenomena ni kt mane2 masjid pun kan…

tu semua untk msyarakat stempat jgk kan…

skali lg aku nk tkankan kat sini,aku bkn larang korang derma untuk palestine…tp kite jgn trlepas pndg org2 kite yg xkurang menderitanye… kite je xnak amik tahu tp sbnrnye ramai sgt y menderita d skeliling kite…korg pk2 jiran sblah rumah ade x ibu tggal yg tpksa bsarkan ank dgn bsusah pyh sakit… pkcik ,makcik, spupu ke..atau sdare mare y merempat xde umah tetap…hdup pndah randah sbb xde kje ttp… wlaupun diorg kt sini xkene bom ari2 tp derite y diorg tanggung ttp perit…kite pun xtau dpt taggung ke tak…tp d sinilah tggjwb kite…sntiase kne sdar dan mula mencipta cinta kite pd sesame umat yg jga menderita hdupnye tp dekat shje jaraknye…bkn d bumi palestine ini shj…dan ujian y ditanggung oleh Palestine tu jgk kite amik peringatan spy kte jd mcm diorg…sntiase berdoa untk ksejahteraan bumi kite malaysia..

pasal yang buat demonstrasi seme untk kekejaman y blaku d palestine tu…kite nk menentangye…ats kematian dan kecedraan rkyat palestine …baik2 kite laungkan Allahuakbar..lpas bsurai jap je dah suke ria amek2 gambar and bersorak2 atas sbb yg tak dketahui pon reosanablenye…ala2 kite dah berpesta atasperistiwa tu…hmm…spttnye hati kite ttp menginsafi ape yg blaku kt sane kan…ble g2, niat dan care dah jauh…dah kite leka dan lalai lg dgn ape y ade kt dunia ni…then kite kmbali mcm biase jgk… lupe dh niat kite tu…pakai baju bkabung…laungkan Allahuakbar…sbaiknye hati kite istiqamah menentang kekejaman tu… edisi bgambar…tersnyum riang kbanggaan sbb kite dh jd slah seorg reformist pttnye takde…dh bersurai tu,kite balik je dan truskan hdup sbg hamba Allah spt biase…kite akan slamenye Hamba DIA… jd d sini bole djadikan sokongan dgn ape yg dr tarique ckp…CINTA KITE SESAME UMAT TAK CUKUP SAMPAI PADANYA….Wallahua’lam..yg baik Dr ALLAH, yg buruk Klemahan aku sndiri…